Summer's End

I stand here alone at the edge of a change in seasons.  Hot pink angel wing clouds sail silently across the deepening blue sky.  The sun has set and a cool wind blows.  I'm not sorry to see this season end.  This year and I have seen lessons great, love unimaginable and and new thoughts to contemplate.  I look back and see how far I've come from a place I never thought I could move away from.  Some of the things that I've learned so far are that sometimes love is born so deep inside of you it has no end and there are connections with certain souls that just seem to begin in that very same place.  It's beautiful and unimaginably complicated in terms of human standards.  But, no matter.  The learning is etched so deeply within my soul that it has become a part of me now.  I've come to a place where I'm ready to let things drop away and I'll welcome the seeming emptiness for a time because I know that only when the soul is fully empty and willing to remain open can that soul be truly filled.

I've walked a long stretch of lonesome lately and just when I thought I'd never get it, that I'd never understand the lessons sent to me, the universe saw fit to send me soul friends and it is they who inspired me to reach deeper for understanding.  So blessed am I to walk this world among these treasured souls.  I've been on a roller coaster of sorts for quite a while seeking the wisdom through the tears and shadows of pain, finding the love even when I couldn't see and knowing no matter where I went, that love was always right there inside of me waiting to be called forth.  It takes so much silence and stillness to truly understand why we do what we do and why others come forth and yet others let go.  We're so funny in that we want so very much to keep all things good just exactly as the way we think they are.  But then, then the truth dawns and well, you have to let go of the fantasies and embrace a reality that is truly more beautiful than ever you could have realized.

I don't mean to sound as though I'm talking in circles but it is cycles and circles that have perplexed me much in the days, weeks and months that unfolded so far in this year two thousand and twelve.  Every day and with every heart beat, life is so worth living and experiencing.  Life in this dimension is awe-inspiring, challenging, mind-bending and even crazy making sometimes.  But you see, that IS the beauty of it.  No matter where we are or what we do, life goes on and moves, changes and evolves and when we're willing...we evolve too.  We become greater or lesser than we could be by choice.  We align with either the light or the darkness whether we are conscious of those choices or not.  One of the beautiful things is that in every single moment, we can be reborn in our thoughts and emotions if only we would allow it.  So, off I go into my most favorite season of them all.  ~sigh~  I so love the Fall.  I hope for all of you that this change of season finds you hopeful, tested and standing with courage in your own light.  There is no better place for you to be.  Much love and light.

(c) 2012 Jaie Hart (photo, random internet find)

Thoughts on Soul Mates

So, how many of you get this dreamy-eyed look and recall the epic movies of the perfect romance and love when you hear the term "Soul Mates?"  Probably quite a few of you.  I do not mean to burst your bubble but the reality is a far cry from the fantasies portrayed in the movies and on television.  If you better understood what soul mates were, you might have different expectations and could, quite possibly, enjoy a relationship more for what it is rather than what it isn't.  I know it may be disappointing to hear this but take heart, it is not a death sentence to that perfect romance that you crave and picture inside your mind and heart day in and day out.  When you understand the mechanics of soul growth a little better, you will realize that you are always surrounded by soul family, soul friends and even soul mates.

So, consider the basics at this 50,000 foot level I'm going to give you (because if I don't do it at 50,000 feet, you'd be reading this in a book - a long one).  Our souls come here unaffected by this life but with the unresolved karma we carried with us from other lives.  I'm not going to dig deep into karma yet, that will come in another post.  So, stay tuned okay?  Environmental psychology shapes us for the most part and as we learn about and endure the pain we encounter in life, we all develop these walls and barriers around us from assumptions and the provisional truths that we have formed.  When two people come together with similar barriers as well as similar openings in those barriers, a connection is made and what do you have?  Yes, soul mate connection!  Okay, that was a very simplistic approach.  Now let's dig into why we have soul mates.

We all come here with experiences that we want to learn from and so we will attract those that can get through our openings.  Those openings we attract from can be pain as well as places where you are whole and healed.  We are here to learn and so, the way the framework is established at this point in time is that the emotion we carry within us from all of our environmental psychology, assumptions, wounds and weaknesses will draw to us (like a moth to a flame), those who can best help us understand and ultimately, transcend our weaknesses and wounds.  Soul mates are absolutely wonderful at that.  They can push every single button we have because they have them too.  They know themselves and were also attracted to you because of the things you could teach them.

A soul mate will seem to attract you at the level of the soul.  There maybe this unexplainable reason you feel completely drawn to someone.  In fact, there may be this ethereally registered acknowledgement when you meet and you might mistake it for perfect love but what you may experience is your worst night mare, emotionally speaking.  Now, this isn't necessarily a bad thing but that really depends on your expectations.  Soul mates come to us to help us exercise our demons, look at more deeply our life lessons and dig deep into the wounds that cause us to react so deeply to the things that they do.  They can make us angry, make us cry, make us want to run away and hide forever but if you get past the superficial pain aspect of running into a soul mate, you might just figure out why you met.  There are those cases where you do perfectly match for a romance and you each are so secure in yourselves that you do not react negatively to the soul baring presence of a soul mate.  You actually can relax and try to begin to understand each other's presence in your lives and you can decide to learn.  There are many happily ever afters between soul mates and there are also sad tales concerning soul mates.

The cool part about soul mates is that there is no shortage of soul mates.  Did you know that a soul mate doesn't automatically refer to a romantic interest?  It doesn't.  You can have a parent, child, teacher, friend, co-worker, stranger or neighbor that is really a soul mate for you.  You just connect to them at a deeper level because your souls require either similar growth or opposing lessons.  Its actually a beautiful design.  I've met many soul mates in my life time.  Some were dreamy wonderful and some were down right heart breaking.  But, the lessons they all brought and continue to bring (for the ones still with me) are absolutely priceless.

So, realize that when you meet a soul mate that drives you absolutely insane, consider that you have an opportunity with this person to better understand what about them makes you crazy and what about you reacts to this and why?  When you can figure that out - demon exercised - done, next life lesson please?  It doesn't have to be traumatic and you didn't fail when it didn't work out and you had to part ways.  Realize that every person you meet has something to learn from you and something to teach to you.  A soul mate will end up doing this in a very personal way that hopefully you will one day fully understand.  A soul mate will seem to have a knack for testing you to your core.  Although uncomfortable, this really can be a beautiful thing.  You just have to understand the frame work and purpose for meeting...the growth and potential for transcending things that no longer serve you can be gained much quicker with a soul mate.  Its never simple and easy but its worth every breath and every step.

Think back to those who connected to you very deeply or that you connected to very deeply.  I am willing to bet that if you gave it some focused thought, you could come up with a list of very valuable things you learned and another list of very interesting or troubling things you just don't understand.  Don't worry about the latter - another soul mate will be along shortly to help you with that.  :)  You don't have to believe my words.  Look back in your own history and test them.  Who were those you learned most from in the positive and the negative?  I'm willing to bet they are a soul mate and at some point, when you fully understand all lessons, you will be grateful for the experience of meeting them even if it takes a while.

I hope I've given you some food for thought.  Blessings for your journeys beautiful souls.  May you find the light and the love in every interaction with every soul always.


(c) 2012 Jaie Hart (photo, fortunate google images find)

Fallish Contemplations

The Fall equinox approaches finally.  Just a day and about a half and it will be here.  The Fall does to me what the Spring does to most everyone else.  I love those precious moments of watching the leaves change color and fall from the trees.  It always reminds me of the fact that we are all in a continual state of changing, letting go of what was and embracing the season and easing into those cool and then chilly winter months.  I love, love, love this time of year.  Out here in California we don't get all of that cold weather but I'll tell you, that first night I catch the scent of wood smoke, I will be in pure bliss! 

I love the change in seasons and have been looking forward to this Fall actually since the last day of Winter.  I'm not really sure why.  It just is what it is so I intend to fully enjoy yet another Fall.  Forty-six of them now under my belt and each one the same thing - pure joy of existence, rich colors, anticipation of good tidings the seasons will bring as we slowly approach another year come to a close on planet Earth.  I don't know about you, but I look forward to New Years and don't buy into the whole "The end is Near" stuff that has been cramming in the internet forever.  I'll be grateful when 12/21 passes and we can all get back to business without the incessant chatter of the doomsdayers.  Having said that, I do want to acknowledge and appreciate that they are doing what they believe in their hearts to be good and right and well, I can respect that.  I just don't buy it.  Life is tenuous enough here on Earth without worrying about the end of the world, again for the how-many-eth time? 

Life is just beautiful and I've been so glad to have had the life I have had.  If it ended tomorrow, I'd be truly happy because I lived, I loved and I found so much beauty in existence.  So, in that regard, I live every day like tomorrow may never come.  I deeply appreciate every soul I run across, every lesson learned - even those that broke my heart.  They are all perfect...every day is as perfect as it can possibly be.

Blessings for your journey dearest souls.  Sending positive thoughts that this Fall you might take a moment to let drop away from you those things that no longer serve you, those things that no longer bring you joy and all of those things that inhibit your growth here in this frame.  Change is good - embrace the beauty of it.  If you can't see it now, don't worry, you soon will.  :)

(c) 2012 Jaie Hart (photo and words)

Ghosts (Repost)

I find myself caught in an interesting place with my thoughts. I’d normally just dismiss these kinds of thoughts but things never happen without a reason and in every moment there is an opportunity for growth. It’s up to us to choose what that growth will be and sometimes that requires a little contemplation. I’ve been around the block a time or two and as much as I strive to keep my focus in the present, periodically ghosts from the past do cross my path in interesting ways. My first thought about that is that things that are dead should be left alone. The ghosts sometimes need momentary acknowledgment, validation and then considering your own emotions, you may need to send them away with love.

The ghosts I speak of can be thoughts, memories or actual people. When these ghosts present themselves it’s important to consider your feelings the moment these apparitions arrive at your door. Your feelings are the most insightful things even if feelings are no more of a reality than the ghosts appearing before you. But, looking at the feelings will help reinforce the lesson the ghost was intended to teach. My ghost, at this point, is quite perplexing but I think I’m beginning to understand it’s appearance on my path. I’m at a cross-roads, so to speak, in a couple of different areas of my life. When you find yourself in such a place, it’s wise to momentarily consider where you’ve been before you can decide where it is you truly want to go. Then, of course, you must tune in very acutely to what is within you. Are your present choices and thoughts motivated by love or by fear? Search out the heart of your thoughts and feelings in such a moment and be very clear on your love or fear position. Where you are moving from a base of fear, it’s time to stop and love yourself some more or you are hard-life-lesson bound again and will choose the road to take you back where you’ve already been…again and again until you get it right. If you release the fearful things and instead choose a path of love, including making decisions that truly represent the highest form of self-love, you’ll find yourself moving in tune with the dictates of your soul, your heart and your dreams. Such paths will be even more rewarding for you.

But what about these thoughts again? Hmmm, I think I understand my ghost and the words and feelings it is trying to impart. I take away from this a haunting feeling of destiny, karma and contracts being fulfilled. Confirmation for decisions past as difficult as they were and although a little touched by this ghost's presence in the moment, I’m certain of my choice. It was a hard choice to make and I did it for me and regardless of the outcome, I’m in a good place with that thought. So, my ghost, I see you, I see the heart of you, I understand you more than you understand your presence and now I send you back to where you really belong with love and well wishes for eventual happiness for now and all time.

Empty Moments

I have some solar orbs in my garden.  They are beautiful to look at in the daylight - crushed colored glass in dark blue, light blue, green and orange. They charge up all day in the glorious sunlight and at night they glow and slowly change into deep and rich rainbow colors.  Last night I sat outside  near my garden and I just watched the colors of the orbs change in the darkness and I listened to the sound of the crickets over a backdrop of city hum.  It was quite peaceful and beautiful sitting out there quietly contemplating existence and occurrences of late.  It's a favorite past-time, sitting quietly under an indigo sky filled with and infinite volume of twinkling stars and nothing but the sea breeze and crickets to keep me company.  It was a beautiful moment that might seem mundane, empty and boring to others but I assure you, it was anything but that.

Life fills our minds with so much chatter.  The little voice must label everything it takes in, judge and properly store things somewhere in the archives of the mind.  To sit in a state of complete emptiness, not making a sound, finding a way to just be without the labeling, well, its so peaceful that I often crave it.  Again this morning I stepped out under a black sky filled with a sea of stars and was amazed that I saw not one but 3 shooting stars.  Of course I made some wishes as I sat there and just drank in the sheer bliss of the quiet and cool of very early morning.  Would that I had the time, a walk on the beach might have been even more perfect but I can always go there in my mind.  My memories of the ocean, her sounds, her power and energy are so very abundant in my memories. So, I closed my eyes right then and there and pulled out a memory of my last visit adding even more depth and beauty to a single and simple moment in time.  The bliss that ensued nearly brought me to tears.

We need quiet moments sometimes to still the mind, the wishing and dreaming and just exist with nothing but a gorgeous sky, nothing but a temperate breeze and nothing but the love and pure gratitude of existence inside.  It restores a soul in ways I can't really define in this medium.  It's just something one has to experience.  In those moments when we pull everything away, you are left with nothing but you and the Source of your being.  There truly are no finer moments and I treasure them immensely.  So, I've promises to keep and responsibilities to fulfill today and I'm about to be off to them.  I'll take these precious quiet moments with me into my day today and pull them out as necessary when the day gets too hectic.  We are amazing creatures in that we have this ability to pull moments from the recesses of our minds and relive them.  It's a beautiful and amazing thing.  One more thing before I go, an expression of sincere gratitude, once again, to ESP who in a moment facilitated an answering of a prayer.  Thank you dear soul for being there, for everything you are and all that you do. I appreciate your friendship immensely.  Namaste!  ~Blessings of love and light dear souls.  May you journey peacefully this day and with great purpose. :)

Mastering Unexpected Stillness

Sometimes at various points in our lives, our sources of divine inspiration can seem to be cut off, antagonists appear to challenge your existence and every thing you think or feel seems out of place.  These are very normal parts of existence and the truth is, we create these breaks as a means to pause and consider the lessons learned.  The universe, in its infinite wisdom, will clear your path in unexpected and sometimes ungentle ways in order to give you what it is you really need and that may be a time of complete silence and stillness.  It is during such moments that the myriad thoughts, emotions and lessons coalesce into concrete concepts from which you may gain a measure of wisdom. 

Now, during such times you can decide to throw pitiful thought barriers onto your own path, you can allow yourself to feel like a victim, like "I'm all alone in the world" or wonder what is wrong with you but such thoughts are never the path to the truth.  Always are you surrounded, guided and assisted but sometimes that may be ethereally only and until you learn how to see, hear and understand with your otherworldly senses (which is part of the seeming desolation), it can feel quite uncomfortable.  Don't give in to feelings of despair as that only prolongs the agony and gives you so much more to work on.  Although it may be difficult, don't give into any feelings of desperation or depression either as these are choices we can sometimes feel inclined to make in the quiet times when the mind is processing all it has come to know.

Healing comes in the quiet stillness when nothing seems to be in motion and no words are seemingly spoken.  In such moments we are free to create from the wisdom we are, in fact, attaining.  It just takes a little patience, lots of calm confidence and assurance of your own ability to walk though periods of silence and know you will reach the other side of the seeming chasm of shadow.  Shadows don't always hold smoky specters and apparitions.  They also hold the stuff of our dreams as the truth is, it matters not where we are but what we think, believe and put emotion and energy into.  If you stand in a stark time and your dark thoughts arise and you embrace them as truth, you may encounter a very long and lonely walk for a time.  However, if you stand tall knowing your own light will serve to guide you through those seeming times of shadow, you'll realize this is just a time created by you to take a break from all of those things that came before.  We create what we most need in any particular moment in time.  I look back now at some of my own, very beautiful creations.  I have found everything I have ever searched for.  Thankfully, I held love enough deep inside of me to hold that which required holding and to gently let go of that which must always be free to fly. ~sigh~

Okay, enough of my morning rambling.  Time to gear up and get this day started with hope, faith and pure knowledge of love, light and my ability to master it - you hold these things too - go within and find them.  ~Blessings of love and light.

(c) 2012 Jaie Hart (photo, random internet find)

Illusion of Fear (Repost)

In your creation of walls around your heart, you have already succumbed to fear.  In such a state, you are cut off from true love and can only identify with egotistical love.  You can exist there as long as you want.  You can also free yourself.  Love is the way there.  At times it becomes so easy for us to engage in battle and become warriors for what we think is right, but in so doing we can become so mired in a war we’ve lost before it even begins.  When you can stand back and truly see every soul for who they really are, understand and come to a place of compassion rather than resentment, frustration or hatred, you will free yourself to love not only you but everything in every kingdom – human, plant, animal, celestial and ethereal.

 

Egotistical love is not real.  It is an illusion.  It is created by the ego to allow only a privileged few to rise to a state where you will love them.  That love is conditional.  I hear so many say that unconditional love is not possible in this frame.  That too is an illusion.  Unconditional is not only possible but is the only truth we have to work with.  We just fail to see it until we learn to understand the language.  Everything we see, hear, feel and come to know has an associated language.  Look at your home – everything there can be translated to a language spelled out with geometry…look at the interactions little planet Earth has with time and all of the celestial bodies-everything there can be translated with the language of mathematics…look at your interactions with all of the kingdoms…human, plant, animal and more…there you come to learn other languages and get your first taste of the language of love…that is, if you are looking and are not overly caught up with the ego and the illusions we must contend with in this world.  These languages have always been there but we just do not notice them and so they do not register or resonate in our consciousness.

When we learn to hear and feel the languages and like radio receivers begin to pick up the signals, the illusions that surround us start to shake us up  a bit and the more we tune in, the more everything begins to fall away.  You begin to discern what matters and what doesn’t and your choices not only begin to alter your own life but the lives of everyone on the planet.  When you fall onto the wrong side of pain and embrace the victor/victim play, you will be trapped and the scenario will repeat as your focus on your victim state calls out to the universe with that vibration and you will find you actually call that to you more.  When you can find some way to step out of that play and see instead actions/consequences, the illusion starts to come apart.  When you find a way to take that a step closer and begin to see the world and all of its inhabitants in a new light, and begin to understand the language of love, your mind will simply be blown with all that has been right there in front of you the whole time.  Love masters the all of everything.  Fear takes it all away.  We have free will and can exercise it.  There really is no wrong or right in this method of learning…there is just the experiences in this life for you to uniquely have and learn to interpret.

There is so much to digest in letting your mind escape far beyond the limits and confines that is all you know and were taught growing up in this world.  We are not as limited as we think and to truly understand what that means, you must find the beautiful light and love filled stream that flows freely within you.  When you touch it, it is light, sweet and so powerful that it can not only change you but send beautiful ripples out into the world that touch others and create conditions for them to be more open to going in and finding it.  Love is the question and the answer.  We are Love = Love is One = We are One!

 

(c) February 21, 2011 Jaie Hart (photo, random internet find)