These days of celebration and ceremony, of tradition, hope and love are truly no insignificant things. They bring us something we need, something we’ve unconsciously wished for…a point in time of culmination of lessons learned and dreams to come. We mark the year in celebratory fashion at different points with each bringing an opportunity to observe where we’ve been, what’s worked and what needs more refinement in our lives as we go. If we take a breath and a quiet moment within the seeming chaos of activity, what things might we see? I suppose that is up to each dreamer. Every breath and step is a choice in terms of how we perceive it. It’s appreciating the experience for what it is, sometimes I think quietly to myself.
It was surprising for me to begin to witness that I was separate from my worries and thoughts each step of the way along the path that has been my life. If I’d only known sooner, I sometimes think, I might have chosen better or at least from a more aware state of being. But, I have to warn you, once you become aware, there is no going back to sleep. You begin to realize that arguments you seemingly continuously face is really just entertainment at some level and you choose it not due to challenge yourself or others but because there is something you are unconsciously striving to learn. I don’t agree with wishing I didn’t know now what I didn’t know then, as the song goes. I’m grateful for every gossamer strand of understanding I’ve gathered in my life.
Gratitude is one of the greatest keys to happiness, serenity, and peace I’ve ever known. In tragic moments, gratitude has helped pull me through. In moments of joy, gratitude has helped me to better savor the experience. I find that I become more grateful as time goes by and often it is for the simpler things in my life. Just now it’s chilly in my corner of the world that is usually beyond quite warm. The opposites are fascinating not only in the weather but all things. Like dark and light, the way they contrast and define, where they pull away and then meet…truly it is a fascinating display but more so when you are aware of their differences and the sameness they equally possess.
The solstice always marks a time for me to appreciate what I’ve learned and to begin to truly set my intent for the next year. I strive always and ever to observe but not get overly caught up in anything…not feelings that aren’t facts, not the emotion of an absent minded or psychologically triggered moment, not the struggles or stress that comes with life. When I take a deep breath and allow what is to be just as it is without needing to change a thing, I find a better stream of existence to flow within. I battle resistance sometimes until I reawaken to fully understand the obstacle is the path. When I meet it not to defend against but to embrace “it” whatever “it” is in a moment, it’s impact relaxes in response to my own surrender and the flow brings with it a greater understanding and awareness as well as appreciation. I’ve come to trust that in my life from things of great significance to small. Trust is a big word with far reaching impact in my world. Greeting in warmly has been my saving grace along with gratitude.
Embrace the season’s celebrations and know that it can bring you more than you ever thought possible. It may not bring you precisely what you wanted (or consciously thought you wanted) but it will bring you precisely what it is that you truly most needed. When you begin to trust that life will bring you that, and completely surrender to it ready to flow knowing you can handle what ever manifests on your path, the season, your interactions and your life can be a more interesting set of experiences. I pray the season brings you compassionate understanding, reawakening, joy, love and peace. Happy Solstice, Happy Holidays and Happy New Year too.
© 2019, Jaie Hart (photo and words)