June gloom sky, cool sea breeze, and warm coffee in hand as I contemplate my day. Weighing heavy in the background of my thoughts is change and a new direction that has presented itself. I love how that happens in life. You can go for long stretches of the same thing day in and day out and just when the sameness seems to be bringing you to the breaking point of either boredom or frustration, something on the horizon shifts and changes. You can shy away from the opportunity that presents itself and just go on keeping everything the same. Or, or, or…you can stand up tall knowing that the potential change on the horizon could be that very thing you have waited for, prayed and hoped for.
I like change and it is a very necessary part of life but boy are those steps to rise up to meet it seemingly steep. I say seemingly for a reason for the challenge is almost always a mental exercise, at least in the beginning. So, I smile here in the low light of early morning letting my imagination run with it, see it and feel it. What does it feel like? How will it work? What exactly will it take to see this change through? Well, courage for one. Okay, fine. I’ve got that. I’ve been a single parent for the better part of my adult life. Obviously, there is courage. What else? Fearlessness and tenacity to stand up to the occasion. Well, my life experience has well prepared me to meet fear, see through it and walk the path any way. What else? Logistics? Oh yes, that. Well, that is the part where I know the Universe must step in and align the stars a bit. For that part, I will have to have patience. Again, single mom for many years - I do think I have a lot of patience.
I love a challenge, the right kind, the good kind and for the opportunity to do something new, change something in this path of a lot of silence and stillness. I’ve grown so comfortable with the sameness, the quiet and stillness. It intrigues me, this opportunity that has seemingly-randomly presented itself. I think I will meet it. I think I will heed the call and take each step and remind myself to stay in a perpetual state of curiosity, with courage, tenacity, fearlessness and patience. This could be something really awesome or it could be the stepping stone towards a completely unknown journey. Who knows? But, I know the path of my life up until now. I see destiny as that tiny little light at the far end of the tunnel I seem to have found myself in. I am ready to embrace new thoughts, new ideas and to explore the base of my own creativity and strength.
I have started over and over and over again in my life, each time in a new way and for different reasons but never really a reason that I chose out of the purity of silence and peace. Perhaps manifesting from this state will challenge me in a whole new way. My faith in my own ability rarely waivers as I am time tested in walking my own path so far. In a vision not long ago during a meditation, I was shown 3 images: That of a knight from times of old. The knight was standing tall, courageous and victorious. Then there was a giant of a man, very strong and full of muscles and confidence. Finally, there was before me an old white bearded, robed and hooded man. His very existence exuded time tested wisdom with a little (or a lot) of mystery. When I asked why I was being show these three archetypes, my guide said, these are really obvious symbols you already know the answer to. I then thought, Courage, Strength and Wisdom were attributes I needed to learn to embody better than I have. My guide nodded.
This was just a month or so ago before I had any inkling of the potential change coming my way. I don’t want to make too much of it at this point because, well, it is somewhat of a private journey for now but the guidance I was given prepared me for this. Can I embody, Courage, Strength and Wisdom as I walk this part of the path? I think that I can and along with that, I also have faith in myself to meet the journey well prepared, open and curious too. Life changes can be scary sometimes but good things are often disguised within the heart of change. This, I have learned. I’m grateful to have learned. That vision held some other gifts too, one’s I’ve not yet been able to fully consider. There were 3 more symbols presented: A crystal stone that had a rose quartz pink and orchid-like lavender colored light all around it. The color was incredibly soothing and energizing. The second was a bundle of Juniper branches. The final item was a book with blank pages and a pen. I’m thinking these are also related to the journey that has presented itself to me. A healing journey and a return to my natural state of curiosity and exploring through the written word or, perhaps, a cross roads in my life in which the next steps are blank…new opportunity and a time to choose my direction with intention.
I love meditative visions. Like dreams, they can give us symbolic and even actual guidance. If it feels right and in good alignment with the core of my being, I pay attention and in that, have never been lead astray. So, now, I take a step, a breath and smile at the unfolding of another beautiful day on Earth.
© 2018 Jaie Hart (photos and words)