Integration

After a peak experience a few weeks back, life somehow feels quite different to me.  I wish I could put my finger on exactly what has changed or how but it’s too nebulous and wonderful for that. My thoughts this morning turn to one simple word that is not so simple at all, integration.  This dream we are living is more amazing than we realize.  My faithful readers won’t be shocked to hear me say “Life is amazing.”  I say it in just about every post and yes, it is a message I do try to impart through all my human interactions.  Peak experiences can be positive or negative depending on the emotions you choose to attach to them.  I’m certain you’ll never guess which view I hold between positive and negative.  I view all experiences as positive even when going through an experience might be particularly challenging for me in some way or in every way.  I guess I’ve realized along the path that has been my life that even though some parts of the road may seem stark, dark or painful and frightening, our experience is ever enriched by every single thing we go through.  Or thoughts about what we experience further shapes the sum total of the experience for us.

Through integration of an experience, we take in what is most meaningful to us and leave behind that which we have already learned or, well, have no further interest in learning.  I find myself in a time of integration.  The past several years of my life have been nearly indescribable in some ways.  If I wrote it all out right here and right now, I’m sure the things I’ve seen and experienced might seem quite outlandish at times, strange or even make me seem a bit, um, touched, I’ll say.  Touched is actually a very good word with many and varied implications.  Again, I’ll lean towards the positive realizing I have been deeply touched by people, visions, inspirations, nature and most important of all, love.  Maybe love is not so much categorized here in the typical sense or understanding of it.  It’s broader than that, much broader.  I could also add, all encompassing, weaving its way through every thought and vision as I went about some quite ordinary  and quite out of the ordinary seeming interactions within existence.

I have been on a very long pause, while trying to integrate all of the inputs and downloads that made their way into my psyche, my consciousness and my being.  Life is but a dream, the old childhood song goes and this is true.  But, this dream is very real based on my specific space-time orientation and I truly intend to make the absolute best of it.  I realized in my travels that I came to this place to learn and to better improve my own understanding of love in its myriad facets.  I can honestly say that I have learned so much and that I am so very grateful for this opportunity at this point in space-time to exist in the physical.  I look out into this world and I realize, just like the stars seem to shine individually with no seeming connection between them...the empty space in between is not so empty at all...just like the space between us here on Earth or elsewhere in the cosmos.  That empty space between us is not so empty and it is that thing or stuff that we cannot perceive that is the glue that connects us all.  It has nothing to do with our humanity or spirituality, it just is what it is – there...pulsing...moving...supporting and strengthening without being seen.   We just have no words or framework with which to define it.  Science begins to and Metaphysics does too.

With all these coffee-induced mental meanderings this morning and thoughts firing lightning speed in volumes and to spaces that are beyond my ability to follow each nuance an end...I am content just to be.  I’ve never before felt so ethereally and physically alive and comfortable within the confines of my own skin.  I take that as the gift of understanding that it is for me.  It’s been a long time coming.  There are many experiences you must integrate into your understanding to achieve the goals with which you set your own life plans.  Your experiences will repeat until the understanding dawns and your true understanding expands and the process just continues.  Rather than waiting for an event to feel the sentiment of achievement or satisfaction, do it now for the pure and beautiful act of living and appreciating this now.  There is no destination you suddenly get to and say, “See, there, I did it.”  None of us gets out of here alive.  At least not in the physical.  So, enjoy every breath and step on your journey and realize the gift that your life here in the physical is.  If you feel you lack love in your experience, know that you have the power to create it...the seeds have always been within you.  That spark of divinity with which you were so beautifully created gives you amazing power to enrich your own experience from inside of you and with trust and faith it will manifest without if and when you choose to make it so.

I wish you more than love and light as you journey through your lives, I wish you patience, openness of heart and mind for greater understanding too.  Know you are a beautiful miracle just as you sit there breathing and reading this little blog post of mine.  Peace be with you always and ever.

(c) 2013 Jaie Hart (photo is a fortunate random internet find - thanks google images!)

Emerging Truths

I look out into this world and see the most amazing things most days.  In the face of a flower, I see sacred geometry staring back at me.  In the landscape, I see golden rectangles, spirals and light so beautiful it makes things glow.  I ask others sometimes, "Do you see that?" They'll reply, "See what?"  Then I'll say, "Look at the flowers, they are glowing.  Do you not see them?"  I'm stunned when they tell me no.  I'm reminded then that to see light sometimes, one has to be in the right perspective -- open to seeing, open to feeling and open to knowing that the light of a situation is always there just waiting for us to notice it.  Then my mind wanders off a little further to the trees speaking in colors, the sky raining down happiness in beautiful light and the clouds crawling across the blue forming angel's wings, faces and flowers in the sky--These things are all just amazing to me.  I look out into the world and this is some of what I see.  I usually wish to capture the moment in some way so that others might one day be over-taken by curiosity and begin to look for the light and the out of the ordinary as well.  I didn't know these things were there reflecting back to me in the world until I opened my heart enough to begin to see.

How many other things exist in the world that we do not see?  We are trained from early on to train our focus in a very limited manner -- to see things only a certain way - through concrete and superficial or material perspectives.  But, what did they miss when they taught us what blue was, and red, yellow or pink?  They forgot to teach us these things are energy vibrating in a specific pattern and when you  look for the energies you see it as proof that there is more to this world then we've been taught.  We've got so many amazing pioneering spirits out their proving that the world beyond our normal sight not only exists but lives, breathes and interacts with us all of the time.  Physics is amazing in this regard. Experimental outcomes can be changed just by our interaction, intent and observation! There are laws in science but there are some souls that come along and push the boundaries of the laws because they hold a vision of the world in a different way than most are taught.  I'm grateful for such souls or we might never travel thinking that we'd fall of the edge of the world!

Going with the vision theme, think of all the things you read about.  All of the words stem from visions inside someone else's head.  We read about the visions and are greatly entertained by the construct of complicated themes evoking in us emotion, energy and curiosity.  There are those who find a beautiful composition in nature and capture it in such a way that not only do you see what the artist saw but you begin to feel the emotion that inspired the artist.  How do you see emotion if it weren't for energy, intent and vision?  How would we truly learn if all of our senses were not already open to some degree?  Our perceptions sometimes seem so limited but I begin to firmly believe that the only limits in this world are born of those who hold too closely to the rules and laws set forth before them without testing and questioning them.  Those who willingly submit their free will to the limits, the rules of outdated doctrines and beliefs.  In fact, in some religious spheres, to question words written by men in antiquity equates to blasphemy, punishable by a fiery miserable afterlife.  Go back to being a child and hearing the words, "Because I said so."  How did those words make you feel?  Did not the strong knowing soul within you most instantly wish to rebel because it ultimately knows the truth or it would not question at all?  We are made to question as we are sentient beings by the grace of some unseen Force in this Universe that gave us such an ability.  Why should we deny ourselves and what we were made to do ever?  Knowledge is power.

I'm grateful to whatever Force in the Universe or Source of our Creation and I don't really care if that Source was a random accident, a benevolent Father or Mother figure, a master thought in the mind of the All of Everything or if ET's that popped in and decided to foster lives through collective DNA experiments for whatever reasons.  In the end, what does it really matter?  If you take away all of these thoughts and concepts that many of us kill each other over, do we not still exist living and breathing here in this big beautiful world?  We are not liquified where we stand for questioning our origins or seeking the truth.  In fact, whatever ingenious design it was that created us into who and what we are, gave us an amazing ability to think for ourselves, to test our vision, question everything until we come to know the truth of things.  And I'm sorry, I cannot accept the truth written down by any being here in this frame that has an ego.  That means every word, no matter how divinely inspired, was judged and then committed to verse, not to mention some unscrupulous and manipulative souls who intended to control small minds with great fear.  I cannot get into conspiracy theories, debates on the religious truths in existence or further debate on our origins.  We each have our own minds and can make them up for ourselves as we learn and grow.  No one is made greater or lesser by their beliefs.  I respect that.  Ultimately,  I'm just grateful,  infinitely grateful to whatever Source it was in the Universe that lead to my existence here and now and I need no superiority debate in my favor in order to be okay with who I am.  I know and can feel the truth of the sentiments behind my words and what does and does not resonate light for me.  I wish you all a bright and beautiful day of contemplation and pure amazing and wonderful existence.  ~Blessings.

(c) 6/12 Jaie Hart (Although a random internet find, I believe the painting is by Josephine Wall)