I step back a little further and think that perhaps the two concepts stem from the same indescribable Source and for good reason. Maybe our understanding of the that reason may be limited in our current state of consciousness, but there is a reason none-the-less. Some interesting studies have taken place concerning the dark matter that exists in the cosmos and how under certain types of scrutiny, not only does dark matter exist but within some constructs, that dark matter seems to hold up the light in unexpected ways. Pulling my thoughts from these concepts a little closer to personal experience, I ponder gazing up at a dark night sky. This is something I take great pleasure in for so many reasons. Every time I gaze up I see nothing but the darkness interspersed with the light of stars that were born, held brilliant existence and then some burned out to be replaced in the continual cycle of birth and death. I go back once again to the thought of light and dark and good versus evil. As I recall how a night sky deeply contrasts and makes me appreciate the beauty of a billion twinkling stars, so too do I realize the interplay between dark and light in our human existence. To be a little more precise with the example of human behavior I question, does not the action of actors conducting behaviors we find unsavory make us not appreciate those behaving good and kind even more? Does inappropriate or dark behavior make us not wish to strive even more to do better, be better and work harder for good? (Some of us at least maybe?)
If my supposition has any merit at all, then there must be some sort of design or purpose in the process. This brings me to further questioning whether or not some souls actually agree to come here to play certain types of roles to teach others the consequences of choice, action and reaction. I don't write to excuse or explain away what some might term bad or evil behavior in human beings that the moral majority has determined bad or evil. I just mean to say that I wonder whether some souls don't come here just for the purpose of making the light behavior around them shine even more brightly. When I compare the stars and my appreciation for the light, I must say the same is true in my experience with souls some might term bad. They certainly make me appreciate those termed good all the more. It also makes me realize we are all comprised of dark and light, good and bad whether or not we wish to hide or admit it. We are all capable of great and wonderful things as a race of human beings but we are also capable of some pretty terrible things as well. But maybe those good things and terrible things are only a matter of a limited judgment created from a lack of understanding of the true framework in which we all operate.
Stars are born, grow bright giving beautiful light and then they burn out over time but the darkness that holds them remains. In this view, it seems the darkness actually supports the light. Perhaps there are good reasons for this but we haven't entirely understood just why in the larger meaning-of-life kind of framework. We can get to the mechanics through physics and other scientific disciplines but we haven't yet discovered the full scope and detail of the framework or fully understood that there is a framework much bigger than our limited capability for everyday thought can define. The soul within me smiles as I write this morning because it knows in feeling what I still cannot fully articulate. My consciousness on this side of the veil is much more limited it seems. This grand design we experience here has a beautiful purpose in terms of what it has the potential to inspire in this Earth's inhabitants. Our experiences, whether good or bad shape the whole of the resulting beingness that we are and have always been. Free will dictates that we can choose how we will experience this world even if events occur seemingly randomly or by mere chance. Even if our experiences are formed by random events or chance alone, we still have the ability to choose our perceptions of what we experience and no two of us see things exactly the same way under the exact same circumstances. This for me, creates a wonderful diversity of experience. This diversity of experience creates an energy of the whole that does something we are not entirely conscious of. The collective of emotion, feeling and lessons can be accessed by us all through understanding that the differences exist. We can agree to disagree when we experience the same thing differently or we can egotistically fight to prove that only our experience or perception is the right experience or perception. We can choose to do whatever we wish within reason given the constructs of the elements of the world we exist in.
Some have called me a light worker. I can't say that I own that title because I think it is incomplete. I am not here to work the light but to inspire others to seek deeper meaning and appreciation for their experiences through this internal compelling urge to write about my own. Am I brave or stupid? Who knows - you can judge if you want. I don't mind at the end of the day because I've learned about judgment too. I can only experience a degree or two of a thing or person until I have found my way around experiencing a full 360 degrees of a thing or a person. I find I'm continually reminding myself of this important fact. I push myself to become more curious when I find I've entered judgmental territory. Although I question our framework and perceptions (including my own), I do know that the judgmental landscape cannot carve out for me any understanding of truth as I seek it. That doesn't mean, as often I've written, that I will not exercise my judgement in terms of what I will or will not participate in. But notice that I'm curbing my judgment towards inspiring self action and taking no measure of pride in a negative judgment of another. Oh, I've done it. I'd be a liar if I said otherwise. What I'm trying to say is that I've realized the futility of expending energy in that way. It does not contribute to my growth but instead circumvents it. I have come to this understanding by realizing fully that it is the dark and light or good and evil of all of our experiences including the interaction with all of the actors here acting in this play that is the path to the truth I wish to uncover beyond belief. The light and dark, the good and the evil, these shape the sum total of all of our experiences. I do not see this negatively but rather positively because this is where I've gained greater understanding.
I am utterly fascinated by the workings of the construct of this place we co-exist within. I'm further fascinated with and very appreciative of my fellow brothers and sisters making their way through their lives. It's no easy task although some make it look easy. Just as many souls here can make it seem hard and such a struggle to attempt to exist at all. Regardless, my heart goes out to them all in the hopes that they get from this place and this experience exactly what they are looking for. The dark and the light, the shades of gray and the shadows cast from light around darkness all teach us something about our own framework. I have no conclusions for others in my thinking this morning, just my early morning coffee induced mental meanderings. The sun is coming up even though I can't see it. The autumn blanket of clouds is here with us in my little part of the world. I'm grateful for this moment to sit and to drink in the delicious feelings deep within that have resulted from the whole of my own experiences here on Earth. There have been hard and terrifying times for me but there too have been times of such pure and pristine love and beauty that I am loath to describe them. I fear my own limited vocabulary may take away from my experiences as silly as that sounds.
As I look back and reread these words I have written, I think I have come to a bit of a conclusion with my thoughts after all. Everything in existence stems from the All of Everything, the Source, whether or not I understand it or can articulate the reasons why and whether or not a single other agrees. Both our experiences of light and dark emanate in some manner from the Source. We are given the ability to think and to create so we can do what we will with the lightness and darkness of our own thoughts and experiences and as a whole, we certainly do. I breathe in deep the cool air of the morning and let all these thoughts go. I need not trace every detail as I contemplate constructs. The nuances would simply drive me mad. I only intended to scratch the surface just enough to give you something to consider. Perhaps, maybe, some food for thought to expand your perspective beyond beliefs (which I consider to be untested hypotheses from collected or imposed theories). ~Blessings for an expansive and thoughtful day beautiful souls. I hope you make the best of every single thing you encounter. Savor the good and appreciate the challenging for the thoughts and actions these concepts compel you to live with and better yet, to truly understand.
(c) Jaie Hart (photo/words)
