Shifting Focus and Entertaining Change

A silent morning spent sipping warm coffee and I find my mind wandering.  Days and weeks have had me thinking, wondering and worrying about way too many things.  I feel the change in season and very much love the fall but within me grows the need for more change, a deeper change as if a new direction is about to open up and I'm so very curious to see what that might be.  I need to change some things in my life as I've come to learn that some things no longer fit.  More accurately, I no long fit a framework that I, myself, have created.  The challenge or worry comes in that this one thing has kept everything so very consistent for so long and has assured me of a level of comfort.  The change feeling runs deep though and I know the only thing that I really have to do is just remain open and meet it graciously when it comes.

What does one do when they don't know what to do but the feel they must do?  I know the answer and my ego doesn't like it.  My ego wants to control and establish a security that doesn't exist except within its construct only.  Security is a funny thing.  How secure can a tiny life form be on a giant round rock spinning on it's axis somewhere around a thousand miles per hour while traveling through space around a little star at over 33,000 miles per hour in a much larger galaxy that is also in motion?  We are subject to anything and everything from biological, geologic and astronomical forces from a physical perspective.  If that were not worrisome enough, we have our own tiny microcosmic psychological matters to deal with as sentient beings.  I'm not writing this to scare or worry anyone really, just to point out a huge illusion that we all hold and the pointlessness of worry - even though I seem to have become a master of that particular negative activity at times.  Thankfully I look at those very moments as opportunities to realize fear is somewhere in my midst and its time to focus not on what is big and scary in this world but the lies I tell myself that generate unnecessary fears.

I watched a program on the Discovery Channel yesterday about an experiment conducted using random number generators and how at times of different significant events in the world, the randomness of the generators was affected by the morphic fields surrounding this Earth's inhabitants.  It made me realize how much I did not want to be an individual putting more negativity out there into the mix that everyone else must contend with.  I'm a sensitive soul who feels energy.  When tragedy occurs in the world, I feel it.  When beautiful things occur in this world, I feel it.  I realize at some level that I must be responsible, entirely, for what I put out there.  So, I come back to my local worrisome meanderings and realize they stem from my own ego's need to control a change I feel coming that cannot be controlled.  It's really ridiculous and humorous at the same time.  So, I stop the anxious thoughts for a moment and breathe in the peace and cool of this most beautiful fall morning.  We are always in a state of flux and change and no matter what happens, we go on whether physically and psychologically sound or, well, not.  It is what it is and what we think determines our experience.  I do not wish to have a negative experience in this life as that is not why I came here.  I wish to learn to relax a little better a times in my own skin and realize that everything in my play happens for a reason, a reason I wanted or a reason I needed (whether I liked it or not).

So, I shift my thought process as I sit here typing away to a completely different paradigm.  If I go over the facts of my own feelings that lie much deeper within at my core than mere random egotistical thoughts and ignorantly attached emotion.  Deepest within my knowing, I implicitly trust me.  I also know my own limits, strengths, challenges and opportunities.  I think rather than superficially feeling uneasy about seemingly impending change I will rest more peacefully knowing that it's my play and I will cast it and direct it and set the scenes up in a way that ultimately supports me quite positively.  I open myself trustingly to this change I feel is coming and the anxiety and uneasiness falls away.  It's not an easy process to trust....trust self or trust others, let alone trust in a plan you cannot easily recall.  Opportunity here in this place is endless.  We can seek the wisdom of opportunity rather than dispair over the perception of challenge experienced negatively.  It's all in our minds as is this entire experience of life anyway.  We're so amazingly powerful but we forget just how much so.

I think I shall sit back and breathe for a bit, take comfort in the void of nothingness, relax into curiosity rather than trepidation and learn to be a bit more present.  It's so hard sometimes but as I've often written, its worth the effort to work at it until you get it right, until you breathe in that one moment where you feel the energy within you rise in perfect harmony with all that is.  Those are precious moments and infinitely more rewarding than entertaining continually the bouts of discomfort and fear.  There is love to be had here and not the kind that can hold any definition of full and complete meaning in any dictionary or other book.  Love is the expansive energy that holds so much of what we experience together.  Trusting in that to bring about positive and necessary change in life is a beautiful experience.  I'm off to some silent contemplation of nothing for a short time.  I find comfort in the silence, peace in the stillness and love when I can silence the mind by letting the thoughts go one by one.  ~Blessings for a peaceful journey beautiful dreamers.  I pray you find your own spaces of curiosity over control, peace over worry and love over fear.

(c) 2013 Jaie Hart (photo copyright as noted on photo)

Transforming Thoughts

Another cool and dark morning, so welcoming compared to the heat from the day before and I look up and I catch my breath as I take in a bright and sparkling sea of stars.  I don't know what it is about a dark sky filled with stars that puts me in a pure state of bliss and awe.  For whatever reason, it brings me great peace along with a gentle morning sea breeze.  These days life can seem so hard.  So much we inadvertently let weigh heavy on our minds.  We're so funny like that.  Our minds consider potentialities, we make thousands of assumption near completely in the negative and that creates for us an untenable state of worry and anxiety.  What if we found a way to circumvent the negative thoughts before they could take hold and generate energy through negative emotion?  What if we could become hyper aware of our thoughts and decide to add to our long chains of thinking and pondering potential positive outcomes coupled with a beautiful reality of presence, breath and peace?  Well, the good news is that we absolutely can.  The bad news is, it takes concerted effort and one has to be willing to give up the bad habit of continually borrowing trouble in order to generate an adrenaline buzz.  Yes, that's right.  An adrenaline buzz.  Sometimes we seemingly become so rote in our daily actions that we actually crave something to get some juices pumping and so we allow the negative thoughts in so we can create the rush of adrenaline.

Some can get this fix participating in daring feats such as sky diving, bungee jumping, hang gliding or other sports with an element of risk.  We don't often realize some of our behaviors have become an unhealthy addiction - and I'm talking about holding negative thoughts.  It requires a lot of effort to take a brain that is used to generating negative thoughts and get it to cooperate by allowing to flow a stream of positive thoughts.  There is one trick I have learned to getting there and that is through finding beautiful things to behold.  Sometimes you have to look hard for them or create a space in which you will allow yourselves to see them.  A walk on the ocean, getting up early to watch the sun rise, staying up late to commune with the stars, finding a garden to walk in or planting your own, taking pictures, going to an art gallery or museum or even something as simple as watching children play in a local park can all be tools to help ease your mind into a more positive flow.  There is so much beauty in this world and if you allow yourselves moments to look for, see and appreciate these things, you create a positive and loving flow of energy within you that can be powerful enough to circumvent negative thoughts and worry.  I promise you that the rush of energy from viewing something beautiful is by far more rewarding than the exhausting adrenaline rush of worry and fear. 

There is something to add here very important as well to restore that flow of good and healthy energy.  Something so simple as diet and exercise.  Eating foods healthy for your body helps to create positive energy flow.  Add raw fruits and veggies, limit fatty foods and sugars and make sure that you are consuming enough fluids during the day.  That one thing alone, consuming the proper amount of fluids, is so important.  Your muscles and joints work better when there is enough fluid in your body to facilitate their use.  Further, your organs can function more properly when you are eating enough fiber, drinking enough water and getting exercise.  The chemicals your brain produces while exercising and for a good amount of time to follow really helps promote a stronger sense of well being that can over-power anxiety and worry.  Again, one has to be willing to trade the behaviors that create worry for those that create a sense of wholeness and peace.  It is work.  We can't take a magic pill, read a wonderful book alone or go to some magical healer to make it all happen.  In fact, there is a lot of high-priced snake oil being sold out there as the sure way to gain serenity and peace.  You don't need to buy anything to get there.  Everything you truly need to get there is already within you.  You just have to be willing and open to creating the space for positive change and take the steps one at a time.

I pray this day finds you seeking peace, engaging in healthy behaviors and activities so that you can lead a more rewarding and fulfilling life for you.  ~Blessings of great love, healing and transformational thoughts!

(c) Jaie Hart (photo, random internet find)