Purpose

If you could find meaning and purpose to your suffering, you may not suffer so much.  However, human emotion does present a particularly difficult challenge to overcome while we are here learning and make no mistake, we are here to learn and perfect ourselves for the greater good of the whole.  From a very simple concept, does the darkness not define the light more acutely?  Test that...go look at the stars tonight and then answer.  Does adversity not help us to lend ourselves greater appreciation for serenity?  I want to share with you some excerpts from The Urantia Book.  However you may judge this work or not judge it, it contains wisdom and understanding.  The excerpt is as follows:

"...1.  Is courage ---strength of character---desirable?  Then must man be reared in an environment which necessitates grappling with hardships and reacting to disappointments.
2.  Is altruism---service of one's fellows---desirable?  Then must life experience provide for encountering situations of social inequality.
3.  Is hope---the grandeur of trust---desirable?  Then human existence must constantly be confronted with insecurities and recurrent uncertainties.
4.  Is faith---the supreme assertion of human thought---desirable?  Then must the mind of man find itself in that troublesome predicament where it ever knows less than it can believe.
5. Is the love of truth and the willingness to go wherever it leads, desirable? Then must man grow up in a world where error is present and falsehood always possible.
6.  Is idealism---the approaching concept of the divine---desirable?  Then must man struggle in an environment of relative goodness and beauty, surroundings stimulative of the irrepressible reach for better things.
7.  Is loyalty---devotion to highest duty---desirable? Then must man carry on amid the possibilities of betrayal and desertion.  The valor of devotion to duty consists in the implied danger of default.
8.  Is unselfishness---the spirit of self-forgetfulness---desirable?  Then must mortal man live face to face with the incessant clamoring of an inescapable self for recognition and honor.  Man could not dynamically choose the divine life if there were no self-life to forsake.  Man could never lay saving hold on righteousness if there were no potential evil to exalt and differentiate the good by contrast.
9.  Is pleasure---the satisfaction of happiness---desirable?  Then must man live in a world where the alternative of pain and the likelihood of suffering are ever-present experiential possibilities.

Throughout the universe, every unit is regarded as a part of the whole. Survival of the part is dependent on co-operation with the plan and purpose of the whole, the wholehearted desire and perfect willingness to do the Father's divine will.  The only evolutionary world without error (the possibility of unwise judgement would be a world without free intelligence...The full appreciation of truth, beauty, and goodness is inherent in the perfection of the divine universe..."

So, we are here to learn, to experience and to begin to understand.  We wanted these experiences to help us better grow, reach and become ever more divine and closer to the Source.  We forget that the moment we arrive here and even that is part of the plan and purpose.  When you can view the challenges of your life, not from the personal space of insult and injury nor the perspective of victims and villains, when you can learn to laugh at yourself for the ego's desires and thoughtless seeming actions and you can stand in the face of those mired in illusion and know there is no sin committed because there is only love, you will have found a space of great peace from which your lessons mature from experience into ever greater and greater wisdom.  Then life gets even more interesting.  So, don't get too caught up in your own suffering as some personal cruelty meted out by some unkind and uncaring divine or evil source.  Let go of such thoughts and focus instead on the truth of that which you are truly learning.  If you don't get it the first time, not to worry, you'll get the chance to learn a lesson again and again until you are ready to move on. There is no failure in learning.  There is only failure when you never try and close yourself off.  You are loved in this universe and your every effort matters to the whole. ~Blessings of love and higher understanding beautiful dreamers.

(c) 2012 Jaie Hart (other copyrights not held by me are as cited).

Gems in the Rubble

"You're going to have to go out there and do this," the ruggedly good looking middle aged man, with chestnut brown hair said as we were hunkered down in some kind of dirt bunker.  Shocked at my surroundings, I took a quick inventory of the scene.  Rubble, broken pieces of things that once were the typical trappings of an every day life lay in ruin every where.  "But how in the world am I going to survive this," I asked as if I somehow understood what had happened and what it was I was going to have to do.  Again, a part of the scenery came into focus and I saw a thick deep river of mud that I knew I was going to have to wade through.  I thought, how am I going to survive without food or water and how am I going to complete the tasks I have to complete with everyone depending on me?  I'm just one woman and I have no skills in this.  The man spoke again softly but with so much love and compassion that shown clearly and beautifully through crystal blue eyes nearly camouflaged behind a very dirty and dusty face, "You will have all of the love in the universe on your side sweet heart and you will have these."  His hand opened and in it were four emerald green clear oval items that almost looked like crystal Nyquil cold tablets.  "How in the world are these going to help me do this," I asked him. He mentioned a four day flight.  I looked at him and said, "Yeah, about flying...."  I woke with a start and found my surroundings had changed.  I was safe and sound in the comfort of my room surrounded by the low light of the television I forgot to turn off before drifting off to dream.  It was 12:38 a.m.  I got up for some water troubled knowing the dream wasn't a literal one but was, in fact, one of those soul gripping metaphors that will take time to fully comprehend.

I climbed back into my huge, soft and oh so comfortable bed.  The air coming in through my bedroom window was cool and comfortable. The sounds of the night a far cry more comforting than those in the dream.  I wondered who the man was and what he represented...a guide, a way out of whatever muck I was about to have to find my way through...imbued with what...these green crystal things that were some sort of saving grace...and then immediately thinking that green, green is the color of the heart chakra and it's energy is often more powerful than we humans give credit.  I was troubled a bit but took a deep breath, let it out slowly, turned off the TV and laid quietly in the darkness just focusing on the sound of my own heart beat. I drifted once again into the land of dreams.

Back into the scene I somehow fell and I was drinking water that was so dirty I thought for sure I was going to be battling malaria soon.  But I had to.  There was just no other way to survive.  The skies were gray and still there was nothing but rubble and dirt I wandered through alone.  I fought often to retain my balance and the ability to continue forward motion rather than dropping to my knees.  Somewhere within me the only drive I had was that I had to get to the other side of this war zone of sorts.  It felt very much "Mad Max" like.  A great upheaval had occurred and we, those of us who survived, had to fight to achieve the remainder of some mission I could not recall but felt deep within me.  I felt a strong and core level ache of loneliness wash over me and I was suddenly fighting back tears and I knelt down in the dust of a small hill to feel my way through it.  Superimposed over my vision, he came again.  He could project himself into my field of vision at will some how and he spoke again..."Sweetheart, don't give up.  I know how hard this trek alone is.  I know you don't understand so much of what you do but it matters so much more than you know. You carry my love with you always.  You can do this. You have to finish this so we can go home," he said again, with so much love in his eyes and in his voice and I could feel his energy encouraging my every step.  I felt bad for doubting myself...and I felt bad that I could not remember where I was going or what I was doing and frustrated as hell that no one could tell me.  I decided to stop my fears and my worries and I stood up and brushed the dirt from my jeans, I pushed back long wisps of very dusty wild blonde locks, found a piece of string and tied it back so I could see.  I didn't like what lay ahead of me but I started walking again with a sense of conviction that I don't even understand how it could exist within me considering what I faced.  I reached in my pocket for the little crystal green oval things and took them out.  They glittered even in the low light of a thick gray cloud cover and they somehow seemed to emanate their own light and a tingling energy I could feel in my left hand.  I looked up and smiled thanking the Gods for them even though I didn't understand what they were or what the heck I would do with them.  I stuffed the lonely feelings down deep within me as I put the gems back into my pocket.  I began climbing another hill of rubble following a weak trail of light and some unknown compass within me.

My eyes opened again and I saw that I was safe and sound in bed still.  The sun was just coming up and I could hear the birds begin to sing.  A night filled with Mad Max dreams I don't understand with my logical mind... but somehow my soul has already begun to deconstruct and analyze it.  I have theories and ideas and I plan to test each one.  Sometimes our dreams don't seem pleasant at all but they stick with us and seem to grip us at the core of our very souls.  Those are the ones I pay attention to most as those are the ones that have given me the greatest insights into the happenings of my own life.  I understand this dream and the energy of recognition runs along my skin as the hair stands straight on end with seeming chills of acknowledgement.  Grateful to be awake and that there exists in this world a wonderful invention known as a coffee pot, a full store of coffee in my pantry and a refrigerator stocked with delicious sweet cream.  I had much to ponder as I sat up slowly.  I debated whether or not I would share this series of dreams.  After a cup, the decision was made and, so, here it is.

Dreams are not insignificant things.  It is how our minds work out the details we cannot quite grasp while awake and distracted but their themes - once you can fully taste them, are beautiful indicators of direction, summaries of thought and the ideas that create within us hope and faith. ~Blessings as you journey through this dream.

(c) 2012 Jaie Hart (photo and words)

I Want to Understand

When considering life in the global sense, what if we were to step back, way back, out of the construct of this frame work and view the schema that is this world with an omnipotent view? Suppose for a moment, that this place was designated as a place to experience any aspect of reality a soul wanted for no other reason than to learn from the experience. Suppose for a moment one could choose exactly the kind of experience one wanted in the complete absence of judgment. Suppose further that a soul selects other souls via learning agreements to carry out at specific places and times for the sole purpose of enriching other's souls. Suppose also that the only true law that existed was that honoring free will had pleasant consequences and disregarding free will had unpleasant consequences for a soul. 

Consider for a moment that there is no good or bad, light or evil but just a frame work a collective of souls agreed to create for the purpose of learning, improving themselves and understanding the contrast between what is considered dark and light but with the understanding that everything is a facet of a whole. It makes nothing okay that is not okay with a soul but say in order to fully immerse in the framework, one had to forget there was a framework. In this way and in this light, one could go fully under cover and live out the creation and experience as planned and say that when all is said and done, the souls who agreed to experience things together in a certain way for a period of time in space come back then to Elsewhere and determine their learnings and how it refined the essence of the perpetual soul. What if conflict and war, cooperation and peace were all part of the same whole and just facets of varying manners in which the whole could be experienced by souls? What would that mean and how might that change the way we judge and react to the things in this world? I ask these questions and have been asked these questions by trusted advisors and guides whenever I find myself in a judgmental place. I do not have any answers, just my own experience and many more questions and I will keep asking them and I will continue to go deeper and deeper until I understand. I want to understand. 

To me, there has to be more than this simplistic view we so readily hold day in and day out...over and over until the day we day.  Well, as a fact, I know it even if I cannot articulate specifically why...it is something in the soul that permeates every single thought that runs through my mind.  I am a natural observer of life and of souls who exist here now in this frame and those who I can feel just beyond it. There is so much more to life that we routinely allow ourselves to consider and for those who wish to know, the knowledge will be shared and continue to be available until a soul understands.  I no longer wish to remain asleep at the wheel...I want to understand.  I want to articulate what I feel in my soul and our judgment of this world and the paths of others is not needed...our understanding is if we wish to transcend the mundane aspects of this framework that we created.  Roll up your sleeves and let us get to the good stuff.  There is more, so much more to life and our existence and nothing else I say beyond this point will come across sane or cohesive and so I shall stop but only for now.  Blessings of higher love and infinite light shining souls.