I return to the present sitting in the quiet but certainly no trace of stillness of this morning, I notice the feelings of anxiety rising unbidden. It’s more than the gusty winds and an over abundance of positively charged ions that leave me feeling anxiety. I face a fear this week I’m both eager and yet feeling a bit of trepidation to experience but I know I’ll get through. These particular feelings of anxiety are baseless and I’ve learned in life that as I generate thoughts of fear, I set off a chain reaction within my body that attempts to prevent my own success at achieving any sense of true well-being. There is nothing to fear in this movie I have created. When the heart stops, the projector stops. It’s just that simple and no fear in it. There is no pain or bitterness within when the projector stops I’ve learned. So, this means, these thoughts turned-emotion hold no sway over the truth of existence for me in this moment. Our human minds construct all manner of feelings looking into a future there is never any certainty of. I struggle with the feelings of this even though my heart and soul know the truth. It’s amusing a bit to know the truth and yet discover a reaction from a perception out of sync. You’ll know when you face something like this by the very feeling of fear or anxiety itself.
(c) 2013 Jaie Hart (words/photo)