Perfectly Imperfect

 

 

This body may be imperfect by your standards,

But it's mine, I own it and I am quite comfortable in it.

My smile may be imperfect by your standards,

But it's mine and I shall choose to give it often.

My hair is turning gray and you might like to take pleasure in that,

But I am grateful, each strand represents a lesson I won't have to repeat.

My mind may be imperfect by your standards,

But it's mine and after many years, I have learned to make it my friend.

My emotions may be misplaced by your standards,

But they are mine and I shall choose to display them authentically.

My compassion for all may seem undeserved for some by your standards,

But I will always strive to see the beauty in every soul regardless of your opinions.

My physical stature may make me stand out to some as a six-foot tall woman,

But my physical stature is less important to me than my capacity to love.

Poke fun at me as you will but deep down inside, I know and you know,

You take pleasure in my pain only from your own unhealed wounds,

The ones we both know other unthinking souls have left you with...

And that very fact will evoke love and compassion in me for you.

I may not be the best writer, poet, mother, employee, family member or friend,

But I love with all of my heart, I exist to serve humanity and will love every moment of it.

I stumble on words sometimes for fear of how they may be misunderstood,

But I will always find the courage to speak them, straight from the heart.

Despite what this world might think of me,

Like you, I have the right to be here, live, love and exist.

I'm not here for your pleasure or to be the recipient of your painful actions,

But I will always hope you find the love and light in your life...

That my existence may somehow help improve yours,

And that this world brings you more than ever you'd have hoped for.

No, I may not be perfect by anyone else's standards in existence,

But after all of my travels and lessons in life,

I have finally come to love and accept me as I am...

And I will strive always and ever to show you,

You can love and accept you too

You are perfectly imperfect as are we all.

 

© 2014, Jaie Hart (photo/words)

The Dream

The clouds float across the dark sky
Like strange creatures swimming
Through an ethereal sea
Twinkling lights from far away suns
Soothe my soul in ways I can't define
The descending darkness has lifted
The soul wrenching ache has gone
Its amazing how understanding something more fully
Can chase all of the pain away
The silence and stillness
Great friends of mine
They stood by every step of this journey
Calling me back from the brink every time
Making sure I explored every nuance in thought
Every ripple of emotion
Until that moment everything disappeared
And I found myself standing on the shores of Elsewhere
I prayed the Sea of Memories
Would take all mine away
It wouldn't and I couldn't
There are some things that shall remain with me always
My memories and the love woven through them so beautifully
Life can surely seem a challenge at times
But I've learned its worth every step
Every seeming heart break is a gift
It helps you understand much better
Your chosen place within this world
Our creations so good, so real seeming in existence
Require our focus in order to exist
But when you let them drop away in love
Set them free on invisible wings
The breeze left in their wake
Is actually refreshing
So it is, alone I stand
Under this dark sea of stars this morning
A brand new day dawns as the planets precede the sun
The heat will dissipate all of the cold places
And my heart will continue its beating
And I've finally caught my breath again
I shall carry within me now a new vision
Of life, and of love, and maybe some day
The dream

(c) August 2012 Jaie Hart (photo, beautiful random internet find)

Origins of Eternity

Today I spoke your name out loud
Gazing up at a beautiful pale morning sky
The sound brushing my lips as it went
Brought me your essence in sentimental feeling
I wondered about the state of things
Elsewhere feeling so far away
I can't seem to touch it with any party of me lately
And that sends my soul into the depths of pure yearning
My mind seeking purchase in something concrete
Wandering through the stuff of my memories and dreams
I saw you standing there on the coast
The sunlight behind you casting shadows across your face
But in your eyes I could feel the depths
And these feelings of loneliness brought a single tear
I let flow back to the Source of our origins
And the warmth of the light flooding my consciousness
Not unlike the first gorgeous rays of a fresh summer morning
How long I stood enchanted with a sound
How long I stood wrapped in a feeling
How long I searched here and Elsewhere to find you
I just don't know and I cannot wager a guess
Eternity strikes a chord of truth so deep within me
I cannot seem to shake its vibration
And with no effort coming forth I can't say that I tried
Awash in the glow of silver and gold
Source emanating love from within and without
You lead me always to my core
Back to the silence, the stillness and then
I find my way back climbing thoughts and pure emotion
Back to the sun under skies so blue
I whispered, "I love you always" my dear
To my world I return with my thoughts of you

(c) 6/12 Jaie Hart (photo, random internet find)