Where ever it is you
are looking, so there it is you will go, the thought came seemingly out of
the blue.
I let the thought coalesce fully into my barely awakening
mind as I laid there in the dark and cool of the morning. How many times have I experienced this very
lesson?
Admittedly, in some matters I’m
apparently a little slow in spotting the theme of a life lesson when it is woven so subtly and
intricately throughout my every day existence.
But, when you find a way, a tiny space in time to step back from your life and re-focus,
there it is – the theme and pattern of the true life lesson emerges.
We are unconsciously seeking many things for a very good
number of reasons and seek them we will until we gather from our seeking, that
which satisfies our hunger for life lesson learning.
The words beg for my consciousness again, Wherever
it is you are looking, so there it is you will go.
What have I been observing lately? I can tell you it has been disharmony and
it’s all around me but not me. I see it
and feel it in those who are near and yet there is nothing that I can or should
do about it. That might sound callous or
harsh but there is a point to my mental meandering so stick with me a moment if
you can.
I’ve realized of late how silly it is of me to think that it
is my job or role to empathically take on the emotions of others. It does nothing for me or for them except
double the chaos of emotion even if shared from alternative perspectives. All those egos fighting for an imaginary pole
position in an illusive race are thirsty but what they reach for will not
quench them. It will only leave them dry
and parched and that is where the guilt rises within me along with the
empathy.
I see what is happening inside of them and I feel it and have this warped sense of
obligation to do something just because I see and feel it. It seems like the right thing to do but then
I wonder about the concept of the thought of right? Who decides if it is
right to interfere if even via my own emotions as I watch the roles played out
before me. Where I look, I will go.
I do not like where I have been as the burden has been too
much for me to carry. I didn’t realize
the answer was there all along. It is
not that I should stop seeing what I am seeing but rather how I am seeing it
and taking in the experience of it in empathy.
Now with understanding, I can look and see the shining souls
rallying to experience this dream as they intended without my emotional
interference or empathy. Rather, I can
hold a space of compassion and understanding for their life lessons as others
have done for me.
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