What it is I felt in that moment, I can’t clearly say. I was standing at the airport, baggage
claim. Not but maybe 10 feet away were
four human beings. The one on the left
near 15 years old, long blonde hair standing so tall next to her big
brother. On the far right was the baby,
now 11 years old and 1 day shy of finishing elementary school. Just next to her left was big sister, just
turned 24 eagerly awaiting little brother’s bag. Little brother just to her left now stands
over 6’0, just turned 18 a few months back and graduated high school just a few
weeks ago. I looked at them all thinking how much they've all grown and then the
memories flooded my mind of the day each was born. The four most treasured days of this
life. On each of those respective days I
never could have imagined this one here today right now. All
the life that I have lived these past 24 years, it seems as if I blinked and suddenly the
beautiful hopeful and happy little toddlers all grew up -- two now adults, one soon to follow and the
last, making her way in her own time.
I felt so many emotions standing there that I can hardly
pick a single one out. Joy to have them all together for a short
time, sadness for all the moments I missed here and there with this work project
or that work project maybe, all of the precious times and life lessons learned while
keeping their spirits up and their hope alive that life would always be fine if
you did one thing…follow your heart. It
is the heart that knows more than the brain can compute. Not that every aspect of us isn’t always
powerfully connected to Source but the main thriving connection is the
heart. When its gates are thrown open
wide, that is when the miracle of love is not so much attained but fully
realized.
I was tired after a very long and trying day on the job
where no matter what I do, I can’t accomplish enough to keep things going. I realized a few months ago that to try would
be insanity. I had to give up perfection
to accept reality and work within the constraints I have been given, the
choices I have made and not one of those things that seemed so important over
the past few months or years matters at all in this moment. I worry a bit about the world I brought these
magnificent souls into. What will it be
like for them when they reach my age? So
much life ahead do they have and as their mother I cannot help but wish for
them to explore it, the deeper meanings of it so that they can learn much
quicker than I the true beauty and purpose of it and then, yet, still find a
measure of magic and peace within it.
These human beings I created with help, with divine love
were they brought into this world and with divine love will they live each and
every day of their lives as long as I am breathing and even then, beyond. They are beautiful miracles each and every
one and I’m reminded how this is true for each soul focusing their density here
on the planet at this time. Perhaps in
the generation of my children or their children will the truth be better known
in its simplicity without lacking an ounce of significant power. All of creation is every soul's destiny to wield
as he or she sees fit and the learning will come by the wielders and watchers alike. Even bystanders observing are
enriched by a witnessed experience. As a
parent you witness much, scratch your head sometimes wondering how this or that
occurred but then you’ll catch a flash or a string of words evidencing divine
wisdom out of the mouths of your own dearly beloved babes and then you know
your faith is restored, that you did your job well and they're going to be fine
in this world no matter what they choose to create within it. You hope for the best and teach them the
skills necessary to deal with what they will
most likely perceive as the worst and love them. Teach them to love and that it's okay to love.
I wish this were a more transparent world with even greater
opportunities but I guess it's up to us and them to change that where we
perceive it lacking. Apathy is
unacceptable when our lives are precariously placed in a single pointed focus
here now. As I sit here I realize that I
know the emotion that I felt as I saw all 4 of my children standing side by
side, it was love…pure and simple love.
May you find the love that matters most today. Not the love that is given you but the love
you willingly give away for in the giving you are receiving so much more. Blessings.
© 2014 photo/words, Jaie Hart
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