Yesterday was my Father’s Birthday. 48 years ago to the day, he waited up all
night on his 21st Birthday to meet me. I was so grateful that he did. He was a wonderful man who taught me so much
about life. He was so much fun and the lengths
of inquiry he set off in my very young mind I am more grateful for today than
there are words to say.
Sadly, just short of 21 years ago, he left this plane to
move on to bigger and better things. I
thought, with crushing sadness at the time, how sad it is that one should die
so young. I’ve had more than 21 years to
consider that thought since the shock of his passing has long since
subsided. He was freed 21 years ago to
go explore the things he always wanted to explore…space…time…and I wouldn’t be
surprised if his spirit soared somewhere near Australia just to see it. He always did want to go. I hope he did see it before he went
home. I have no doubt he’d have loved
it.
Today I turned 48 years old and I’ve never been afraid of
age and have never had the desire to hide it.
But this birthday I must admit, seems so very strange.
Perhaps the child in me still winces knowing her Father could have
stayed longer and oh my how much did he miss that he might have regretted? But then, I realized that he’s missed nothing
at all. A part of him lives on not just
in my memory but in another dimension, another part of our Consciousness (yes,
with the Big “C”). My dad knew age 48 for
only 14 days before he decided to depart.
He may not have been aware of his chosen departure but he had finished
what he started. He did it as well as he
could have and that is just quite simply good enough. I miss him sometimes though. Knowing a soul’s Consciousness goes on
without the body is a great comfort but there is still the part of my
consciousness (yes, with the little "c") that misses him. Here I
stand at 48 and I look at my children and I’m so not done yet.
Life, I realize, is not dependent upon physical form and I
will do what I came to do despite physical form or pure Consciousness. Perhaps its time to work a bit more from both
to finish all that I have started. But I know this,
it’ll be a wonderful day as every day is here on Earth but it will also be a
bittersweet day as I walk through my memories as I do each year at this
time. I do not wish to forget a single
moment of all that I have experienced here in this world. I do not wish to forget a single moment of
time spent with my family – those I love and those who love me and even those I have yet to meet or may never meet. Life is so very precious and love makes it
even sweeter. Just like a bitter pill,
the pain of loss fades over time and we begin to understand more of our life
lessons. We begin to disconnect our
self-focus a bit and see the world from the eyes of others at times. Understanding comes then, followed by a great
sense of peace and compassion. In a way
he might never understand, my Father taught me this.
My solar return has come again and I am so grateful for
it. I do not mourn those who have
finished their tasks here but think of them more like precious comrades who
completed their work and went on to bigger and better things. Sure you miss them. Sure you wish to hear
their voices or their smiles but they never leave you without leaving those
things with you. Once you’ve been touched by love, that connection
is unending and I’d blow your mind probably if I told you how I see that we are
all THAT connected, so I’ll save that maybe for my book writing and lesson
plans. That is what I came for…to enjoy
life and help others learn how to do the same.
Happy Birthday to me is a well and good thought but I have another for
all of you. How about you give
consideration to this day as if it were your first day here. See it through the eyes of fresh
innocence…see it through the eyes of unending and always connected Source
love…experience it with the wonder and awe of a child. That is a beautiful way to live. It is what my Father taught me and learning
that lesson has made life more than beautiful.
I would love for you to experience that beauty too. If you could, it would change your lives for
the better forever.
Enough of my coffee induced sentimental ramblings. Close the computer screen down, stand up and
go outside for a walk. Fill your lungs
with precious Earth air. Fill your heart
with the beauty that your eyes drink in.
Listen to the sounds of life all around you and know that you are a
precious and intrinsic part. Have a
beautiful day for me, would you?
~Blessings of great love and light always and in all ways.
© 2014 J.L. Harter (photo and words)
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