The entire day seemed to occur at a step out of time and I wondered about that as I moved from scene to scene. The entire day seemed ethereal, unreal and surreal all at once and I just observed as if I were standing five feet outside of this body that was moving through some routine sequence of motions. Robotic it seemed or I seemed and I didn't care for it much but stayed just close enough to be connected. I completed an enormous task at the salt mines today which is some what puzzling since it felt like I was not there at all. I am barely conscious of how I spent my day today and at times I wondered whether I was losing touch with reality. Interchangeably, I wondered if the truth was that I was regaining touch with definitive reality. I smiled leaving my office for a break. The light inside felt so bleak and dampening and walking felt strange and yet in my soul I was elated. Each step I took along the corridors I could feel in this very disconnected and yet super-connected way that I cannot well articulate. Walking down three flights of stairs, I'd pause at each landing and gaze out of the long thin windows of the stairwell. Soft rolling green hills gave way to the ocean in the distance. No, I couldn't see it, I just know where it is. Finally out the door, I watched a plane leave John Wayne Airport and I wondered where it was headed and I wished more than anything I could sprout wings and fly. In the span of a heart beat I could see the view from that plane now flying over the ocean, we bank to the left and head back towards the foot hills and there - there is the place where in this moment I stand. A solitary figure in a sparsely populated parking lot surround by, of all things, seven dragon flies and a humming bird.
I was back in my body the moment I heard the humming bird's wings. I watched him for hours that transpired in only minutes. What in the heck is going on with time today anyway, I wondered as I flipped on my phone to check the time. I noticed the sky, the clouds and the breeze and it carried me comfortably on this unseen cloud I seemed to still be floating on. I returned to my desk and the day disappeared. Many things to do and some promises to keep. I cannot say I remember having many days like today but I realize how interesting it was as I sit here at home now in the dark of my patio staring up at a half moon glistening in an indigo sky. The air is cool as it was when I began this day minutes ago. Every day is such a delicious treat, especially when the routine becomes something more transformational. I look forward to re-exploring that wonderful dream. As I recall, I had a conversation to finish and one I look forward very much to engaging in with my soul's full attention. Sweet dreams beautiful dreamers. Enjoy every scene, every encounter and experience in the dream you have created here that is your lives. Much love and light.
(c) 2012 Jaie Hart (photo is a beautiful random internet find)