So, it’s safe to say we are all egotistical and in some ways narcissistic. However, we do have a part of our mind (I like to actually call it soul consciousness – as do many others) that observes what is happening inside of the mind and watches detached. These negative engagements of the ego register somewhere…even if unnoticed by the host or hosts. I have to catch myself all the time. I feel my ego engaged in the pit of my stomach. I can feel when negative energy begins to stir because the vibration is off like a drum beating angrily and out of time. It’s uncomfortable and once the energy vibrates like that for a time, there is no easy way out…only time and a whole lot of positive talk can counter-balance the negative energy reverberating throughout my being. I don’t know why people want to put themselves through that. I do my best to stop angry thoughts before they start. I notice that the older I get, the less patience and tolerance I have for that type of behavior in me. Not because it’s wrong but because it doesn’t feel good and its so unnecessary in most cases.
Before the ego becomes fully engaged and ready for battle, we do have some twilight moments were we are not yet fully committed to the ego's darkness. In those moments we can pull the initial thoughts back so they can gain no velocity, no foothold and the resulting initial negatively pulsating energy will quickly dissipate if and only if, you catch it, stop it and disengage. Every human being has the right to disengage any discussion that begins to make them feel bad. You can shut down the thoughts and stop responding to external agitation. It takes less effort to do it on the front end than to deal with it once adrenaline begins to course roughly and uncomfortably through your veins and hurtful angry words are needlessly exchanged. Now, having said that, there are those individuals that enjoy that rush…and I caution you if you are one of those…it’s not good for you…that kind of feeling of “alive” is like a short-lived high and is very negative in origin. It is different than the rush of doing something good and satisfying or overcoming a life challenge or fear. That is a completely different vibration. One is low, off-beat and heavy and the other is a fast and smooth beating energy that is more uplifting and much longer lasting (not requiring a continual feed). If you’re around a negative energy junky…just disengage, get away and don’t feed their addiction!
So, the whole point to this is not to highlight that the ego is wrong. The point is that there are things, interactions and exchanges that are positive, uplifting and create that fast and smooth energy vibration and there are also those with a lower, heavier, off-beat and debilitating vibration that if you don’t pay attention to, you’re headed for a bad time. Left unchecked these “bad time” experiences can collect in your energy field and lead to physical, mental and emotional maladies…depression, anxiety and general malaise. It’s really worth paying attention to the state of your ego, keeping it under firm control, knowing when you’re out of control and disengaging so you can regain composure. Its not rocket science. It really just takes a very subtle awareness and focus to notice and a little effort to control your own thoughts and feelings. My challenge for you if you are interested, as you run across people for the next few weeks and observe interactions positive and negative, see if you can notice any feelings around your solar plexus or navel area…what do those feelings feel like? Are they heavy or light? Do they pulse and how do they pulse? Do you feel a vibration either fast or slow? Pay attention to your body. Notice if it is different when you are directly engaged versus a spectator in the room. When you allow your ego to become engaged, you not only put yourself at risk but you risk impacting unintended victims. Its just food for thought. ~Blessings